Journal Entry #51: Is Prayer really the Key?

Dear Diary,

I had been dealing with insecurities due to lack of employment opportunities; also from getting bored of my own activities, and finally because I feared not being able to accomplish things. I had fears which prevented me from doing anything progressive. I have been feeling the weight of the world upon me alongside negative thoughts.

I worried a lot, stress ate, slept a lot. In fact, I found comfort in sleep. I woke up just to return back to sleep. I felt hopeless not knowing where to start from; these negative thoughts began to catch up with me. I got concerned about myself. I took my medications as required so why then am I feeling this way? I don't know.

Anyway, one of the Sundays which it was essential that go to church because I am Christian and moreover, living in my family house, it is a need that I go to church - I went to church! Usually, I go to church for the sermon, but on this particular day, I went to church for something different. I went for prayers. And so, I prayed.

As I prayed, I told God my heart cries - my deepest worries, how I truly have been feeling within. I told Him how I needed help, how I didn't like how I have been fairing. I told God exactly how I felt - insecure and filled with worries. As I prayed, I began getting answers. Out of my mind and mouth came forth solutions to my problems. I further prayed about these solutions, seeking guidance, and then came Revelations.

I felt fulfilled in my heart that The LORD has manifested Himself in my life. I became grateful. I could crack a smile and live a little. My worries became a thing of the past. I was restored. I didn't feel paralyzed anymore. I felt solidified that I am able to do all things through YAHWEH my strength. God is amazing. He began to remind me of who I am and told me what I have to do.

I had been feeling this way for quite sometime, however here are some key lessons that I took away having being rejuvenated in Christ The Lord:

Believe and Seek God first in all that you do. Do these genuinely and fervently. He has good thoughts and plans for your life (Jeremiah 29:11). Do not rely on your own human strength.

Tell God how you truly feel. This is the essence of prayer; to communicate with God - to have a conversation with God. He truly is real.

Remember who you are in Christ. Affirm yourself daily in His words, nudging yourself on who you are in Christ. Speak and think only positive things.

These where the answers that I got to my prayers, the solutions that came with the revelations. These were the things which I did to spiritually uplift myself. God remains the same yesterday, today and forever more. He answered me, He sure would do the same for anyone else who calls unto Him genuinely.

Forever yours,

A true Sweetheart,

NaDahliah

When you feel stuck and unworthy, remember that Prayer is always the Key